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Tired of Wishing for “IT”

Looking back at the posts in this blog I realized that I have done A LOT OF WISHING FOR IT to happen and very little of actually doing something to make IT happen. Is if like putting down on paper – or online rather – will magically happen.

Oh, wishful thinking!

The problem is that I don’t know how to get started. I know that people say “just do it” (very much like Nike) or “one day you’ll get up and say this is it, I’m doing it.” I see other people that have found their groove meanwhile I’m here trying to figure it out. I tend to overthink things, and for sure I’ve given this “working out” and “eating right” thing a great deal of thought but then again, it stays in there nothing else happens.

Recently in a visit to my doctor for a physical, she freaked out because of my weight and how much this is affecting my health, in particular. my heart’s health. You would think that this will kick me into action but it hasn’t. To add to this, I’m about to turn 40 a huge milestone, and I still don’t get motivated to do anything.

I’m aware of my shortcomings and where I’m standing, I’m not delusional. I look at myself in the mirror, and I don’t always like what I see. I know I must do something. I know I must get into action, but how!? I have a gym membership, but I don’t use it. Why you ask? Embarrassment? Laziness? Wishful thinking?

Who knows!

My biggest opponent is my mind. I’m WAY too into my head to the point that sometimes I need to get out and take some fresh air. As I mentioned above, I’m aware of my shortcomings I just don’t know how to tackle them. I want to lose weight, I want to be healthy, I want to get back to where I was mentally 10 years ago. Where I felt happy and motivated. I want to enter my 40s healthy and with a pep in my step. I want to enjoy my 40s and be strong, but where do I start?

I look to the future and I see a healthy and lean me. Then I look at me today and what I see is all the work that is ahead and I get discourage before starting. I know this is NOT A SPRINT it is a MARATHON and as such, I should approach it but at some point, if I don’t the path towards the destination, I give up.

I don’t want to wish for IT,
I want to be IT!
I want to be IT!
I want to be IT!
I want to be IT!
I want to be IT!

I want to be IT! 

So with that in mind, I’m giving ME another chance! I’m doing like Taylor Swift, and Shake it Off and start over. After all, “it doesn’t matter how many times you fall .. what matters is how many times you stand up, shake it off, and moving forward.”

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Better Late Than Never…

It is February 1st. Time is flying… but it is never too late to recap 2015 and 2016 so far.

2015 was a great year. I’m so grateful for all the blessings and all the amazing things that happened to me in all areas of my life: personal, work, family…

Hope is the word for the year!
Hope is the word for the year!

Why was 2015 great?

  • Walked my first half marathon: this showed me that I can do whatever I put my mind to.
  • Joined Team in Training and signed up to do Disney’s Half
  • Went to Denver for the first time to participate in Fitbloggin
  • In Denver, I got to see a friend of mine after almost 15 years.
  • Went to New York and got to hang out with amazing friends.
  • Saw Shania Twain in concert
  • Went to DC for the first time and had a blast and I walked so much… my feet still hurt when I think about it 😉
  • My best friend came to visit, making him the first visitor in 3 years (since I moved to Dallas)
  • Participated, for the second year in a row, in the Gluten Free Expo as an official blogger 😀
  • Danced the night away during Ricky Martin’s concert in Dallas
  • Got a new car – after my old one gave up on me 🙁
  • Went to Las Vegas and met with a dear friend of mine
  • Saw Celine Dion in Vegas – what an amazing experience!
  • I was chosen to speak at a conference in March
  • Got promoted at work
  • Won the first prize in the company scavenger hunt
  • Surpassed my Fundraising Goal
  • Received the second round of visitors!
  • Spend an amazing time with my family in Puerto Rico

So far in 2016, I’ve had so some up and downs… but all is part of the process and as such, I accept them. After looking back as to how amazing 2015 was, I’m looking forward to 2016 with excitement, hope and faith!

So far in 2016…

  • I was showered with love and support from my family
  • I experienced the kindness of a stranger during a sad situation
  • Completed Disney’s Half Marathon an accomplishment that I was really nervous about it
  • Visited Disney World for the first time and it was Magical!
  • Rejoined Weight Watchers: this time in determined to track and stick with it, even when I go over or when “I’ve been bad”.
  • Returned to work, it has been busy, but I wouldn’t change it…

As you can see, 2015 was amazing and 2016 is shaping up to be great too. How is your 2016 so far?

 

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From Me To Me: Happy Birthday!

Happy birthday to me!

Happy 38 and many more!
Happy 38 and many more!

Today I’m turning 38, but I don’t look a day old of 25 😉 – wishful thinking! – I was reflecting on the past year. The promises I made for myself and didn’t keep. The lessons I’ve learned through these 37 years and that I plan to take with me from now on.

As many, I’ve been hurt intentionally and unintentionally by friends and love. Even though I have been working to get my thoughts, feelings and emotions straight, somehow, I haven’t been able to shake those feelings of not being good enough for the people that hurt me. The downside of this is that now days I act from “behind a wall” of protection.

I remember in the past, when I was younger, I was able to talk to people and make friends quickly. Now, after all the hurt and pain I’m more on guard. I don’t open as much as I used to, and this, I know, it affects my relationships.

Today, my 37 years old self is telling the new 38 years old me, to…

“Let it go, forgive and forget. The people that hurt you and the reasons they hurt you, are not a reflection of you, it is more about them than anything else. Granted, you are not perfect, but you can’t live your life fearing to being in pain or caring about what other people think of and about you.”

“Friends and love come and go. People grow apart. People mature while others stay the same. It is OK to lose friends. It is OK to lose love. It won’t be the end of the World. Don’t hide behind the wall, get out there. Show the World what you are made of. Don’t deprive new people from getting to know your wonderful self.”

“Hurt and pain from years ago… let it go! It is not worth carrying that with you. Take the lessons and move on. Learn and grow from it, but the excess baggage, leave it behind! Remember it costs.”

“I applaud you for letting go of people that holds you back. For knowing what you want and knowing where you going. Remember, keep people in your life that brings good things. People that challenge you to BE better, DO better. Keep the people that are OK with you being you! With the good, the bad and sometimes the ugly.”

“Leave behind the people that judged you and the people that sucks your energy. THERE IS NO ROOM for this in your life. Don’t waste energy trying to please everyone, I know you don’t like disappointing people, BUT YOU CAN’T PLEASE EVERYONE!” 

“Be happy with what you have. Stop wishing for what you DON’T have. Go after your dreams and trust that God will release His grace in time. Remember, HIS TIME IS PERFECT.”

“Embrace this new year and many more to come. Use it to reach your dreams. Use it to be better, to do better. Use this year to make and keep promises to yourself. Don’t waste precious time, remember, time goes fast. In the blink of an eye you’ll be 40! Enjoy today; yesterday is gone and tomorrow is not here yet.”

“Happy 38th birthday and may this new year brings you love, friendship, and may all your dreams come true!” 

Love,

Your 37 year old self!

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