Looking back at the posts in this blog I realized that I have done A LOT OF WISHING FOR IT to happen and very little of actually doing something to make IT happen. Is if like putting down on paper – or online rather – will magically happen.

Oh, wishful thinking!

The problem is that I don’t know how to get started. I know that people say “just do it” (very much like Nike) or “one day you’ll get up and say this is it, I’m doing it.” I see other people that have found their groove meanwhile I’m here trying to figure it out. I tend to overthink things, and for sure I’ve given this “working out” and “eating right” thing a great deal of thought but then again, it stays in there nothing else happens.

Recently in a visit to my doctor for a physical, she freaked out because of my weight and how much this is affecting my health, in particular. my heart’s health. You would think that this will kick me into action but it hasn’t. To add to this, I’m about to turn 40 a huge milestone, and I still don’t get motivated to do anything.

I’m aware of my shortcomings and where I’m standing, I’m not delusional. I look at myself in the mirror, and I don’t always like what I see. I know I must do something. I know I must get into action, but how!? I have a gym membership, but I don’t use it. Why you ask? Embarrassment? Laziness? Wishful thinking?

Who knows!

My biggest opponent is my mind. I’m WAY too into my head to the point that sometimes I need to get out and take some fresh air. As I mentioned above, I’m aware of my shortcomings I just don’t know how to tackle them. I want to lose weight, I want to be healthy, I want to get back to where I was mentally 10 years ago. Where I felt happy and motivated. I want to enter my 40s healthy and with a pep in my step. I want to enjoy my 40s and be strong, but where do I start?

I look to the future and I see a healthy and lean me. Then I look at me today and what I see is all the work that is ahead and I get discourage before starting. I know this is NOT A SPRINT it is a MARATHON and as such, I should approach it but at some point, if I don’t the path towards the destination, I give up.

I don’t want to wish for IT,
I want to be IT!
I want to be IT!
I want to be IT!
I want to be IT!
I want to be IT!

I want to be IT! 

So with that in mind, I’m giving ME another chance! I’m doing like Taylor Swift, and Shake it Off and start over. After all, “it doesn’t matter how many times you fall .. what matters is how many times you stand up, shake it off, and moving forward.”

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