Happy birthday to me!
Happy 38 and many more!
Today I’m turning 38, but I don’t look a day old of 25 😉 – wishful thinking! – I was reflecting on the past year. The promises I made for myself and didn’t keep. The lessons I’ve learned through these 37 years and that I plan to take with me from now on.
As many, I’ve been hurt intentionally and unintentionally by friends and love. Even though I have been working to get my thoughts, feelings and emotions straight, somehow, I haven’t been able to shake those feelings of not being good enough for the people that hurt me. The downside of this is that now days I act from “behind a wall” of protection.
I remember in the past, when I was younger, I was able to talk to people and make friends quickly. Now, after all the hurt and pain I’m more on guard. I don’t open as much as I used to, and this, I know, it affects my relationships.
Today, my 37 years old self is telling the new 38 years old me, to…
“Let it go, forgive and forget. The people that hurt you and the reasons they hurt you, are not a reflection of you, it is more about them than anything else. Granted, you are not perfect, but you can’t live your life fearing to being in pain or caring about what other people think of and about you.”
“Friends and love come and go. People grow apart. People mature while others stay the same. It is OK to lose friends. It is OK to lose love. It won’t be the end of the World. Don’t hide behind the wall, get out there. Show the World what you are made of. Don’t deprive new people from getting to know your wonderful self.”
“Hurt and pain from years ago… let it go! It is not worth carrying that with you. Take the lessons and move on. Learn and grow from it, but the excess baggage, leave it behind! Remember it costs.”
“I applaud you for letting go of people that holds you back. For knowing what you want and knowing where you going. Remember, keep people in your life that brings good things. People that challenge you to BE better, DO better. Keep the people that are OK with you being you! With the good, the bad and sometimes the ugly.”
“Leave behind the people that judged you and the people that sucks your energy. THERE IS NO ROOM for this in your life. Don’t waste energy trying to please everyone, I know you don’t like disappointing people, BUT YOU CAN’T PLEASE EVERYONE!”
“Be happy with what you have. Stop wishing for what you DON’T have. Go after your dreams and trust that God will release His grace in time. Remember, HIS TIME IS PERFECT.”
“Embrace this new year and many more to come. Use it to reach your dreams. Use it to be better, to do better. Use this year to make and keep promises to yourself. Don’t waste precious time, remember, time goes fast. In the blink of an eye you’ll be 40! Enjoy today; yesterday is gone and tomorrow is not here yet.”
“Happy 38th birthday and may this new year brings you love, friendship, and may all your dreams come true!”
Your 37 year old self!